Dust and Clean

It has been a few days since i posted anything. It has been kind of crazy emotionally. Last Wednesday i had a doctors appointment - I thought that i was pregnant. CW and i were pretty excited and nervous. I had been feeling not so well the past few weeks and all of the typical signs (not that i know from experiance) were there. We got to the part where they do the ultrasound and looking at the screen, there was the jellybean shaped black spot but there was nothing inside. I was a little confused and anxious and the nurse called in someone else to look and they explained that it was a miscarrage. When the egg seperated, half of it created the embroyonic sac and the half that was supposed to form the baby never formed. It was a disapointment to be sure. It was weird because i had these feelings for something that never really existed. I hear that it is common and nothing to worry about, it is not indicative of my abilities or inabilities to become pregnant (again?) or carry a child. Weird. So they scheduled a D&C (Dust and Clean as CW's co-worker calls it) for last friday. Well there was this crazy storm that hit thursday night. So crazy that it knocked the power out at the Surgicenter and surrounding neighborhood. They have generators but because it was not a life and death thing they postponed it. So now it is rescheduled for tomorrow. Friday was perfect- i had a long weekend to recover and relax but such is life. They have to put me under and this is the first time i have had any surgical procedure done. I am a bit nervous. So with that note, it hasn't been the best birthday ever but thanks for all the love and support!